who’s the LIAR BITCH?
She has always told me not to judge people. When scrolling through my friends wall, she once said, is she your friend? the girl looks like a slut. The girl was my junior, and maybe one of the most sober person i’ve ever known. She was mad at her own friend nidhi,for making out with a boy who was madly in love with nidhi.
Everything seemed just to me, but today i scrolled though her profile, a group photo with none of the girls showing their back and she was flaunting her backless top in a very unique way. Not slutty, but very sharp, way more than the people she used to judge. This made me realise the conversation we had few nights back, when in middle of a conversation she confessed that she made out with a random guy sometime back.
Late March Morning, my second day in manali.
Me and shivani arrived last morning to manali bus stop. After a very tiring bus ride we were finally here for a short weekend trip. We had a wonderful day and we visited many of the top attractions here already. The place was perfect to start fresh and fall in love with her again. Not thinking about the countless mini breakups i’ve had with her, i spent some of the priceless moments with her but the following one was special.
In the hot march season, we finally managed to find snow on top of a cliff, taxis, cable cars, a mini trek and what not we did to reach there. I have been to hill stations before, but this was the unforgettable one. And then, saffron on top of it, there it was, the snow fall. i would’ve bathed in it but something terrible happened. Shivani looked very ill, i felt her shiver. The next thing that happened was very obvious, old school movie scene. I tossed my jacket on her, took her wet one, and we immediately took the cable car for our way back. We had plans to drive halfway to rohtang, but it din’t took me a minute to drop the plan for which i was here. I was so cold and numb, with a wet jacket on, but it dint seem to worry me. We immediately took a cab back to hotel, and we stopped several times in a 15 minute drive so that motion sickness won’t trouble her. I made her lean to my arms and told her everything going to be alright. Sure everything went fine.
Oh wait, not everything. That evening i had cough and cold, which was bound to happen, no big deal. The next evening, when we left the place, i felt really ill. None of you might be aware of how we sleep in a semi sleeper, she lays down stretching her as much as she can, my arms be like pillow to her and she extends from half of my seat to entire of hers. I’d try to compress myself to a fraction of my seat, make sure i don’t move much so that she could sleep properly. On our halt to a dhaba, she had to freshen up. I remember holding a bottle of water and waiting for her at the door for nearly half an hour just to make sure she is fine. Yes, i was very much protective, and she hated this side of me. Sometimes she’d claim that i am very possessive too, and that i should trust her more.
I used to care for her like a baby,whenever she’s with me, wherever we are or whatever might be the situation.
This was not me, this was never me, and i blame her for the change in me. I was never serious for anyone, not even for her sometime back.
Pre Love- Agar ek ladki dukh deti hai toh marham bhi ek ladki hi laga sakti hai
Post Love- Agar ek ladki dukh deti hai toh marham WOH hi ladki laga sakti hai
Well, the obvious conclusion of any reader would be, i am so desperate to get back.
The real thing is,however, that i would never get back with her.
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