Day-1 The end of a new beginning

Day1- At first, it felt really easy. Easy to move on, to break free and drive to a new place in a -never been to-path.

But something was breaking me from inside, forcing me to mend situations, ask for forgiveness for something i am not ashamed of, to someone i don’t really think deserves it. I can’t bow down to someone again, i can’t beg for justice again, for my life. All thats there in my mind is a wish, a wish to hold myself, for just one more month, and it will be over. Everything will be different. Mornings will be delightful, everything will be so fresh and every season will be spring. I will be as happy as the morning birds. I wont have a faint memory of the flashback, a glass of the finest red wine in a garden where flowers only bloom, they don't die will be my life. 

I had a glass of sex on the beach the last night, and something was different about the place when i was there. I was probably the only one who din't want to be there, i have always hated such fancy places. Baby, i still love you, you are still in my heart, i was told, and what not. I also was told something which came in the middle of the conversation, out of nowhere, that my darling friend made out with a random guy sometime back. 

Got anything at all? no? okay listen.

Shivani is a pretty, charming and amazingly hot(at least she seemed to me) girl who'd also seem like a very intelligent and practical person to you. And yes, i took her out, to one of the most fancy candlelight dinner places here. She was not my girlfriend now, but she was 2 days back. We dated for nearly an year, over the time both of us changed a lot, there is no specific reason for why she broke up, or say there are plenty of them.

No, this story is not about shivani only, its more than just that, its about ankita too.

And before you judge me and mark me a pervert for dating 2 girls at a time, let me clarify in advance, i never met antika in last 4 years, to this day.

This is going to be the most complicated love story ever. No, not a love story, just a story. Some stories have happy endings, others have sad, mine had none.

I had no reasons to be either happy or sad, nor i could ever cry or smile again, i was just numb.

(next update-tomorrow,3rd May)